Yeah, my arm's well, I've met the school's new band director and got an art commission...

OH YEAH!!! GUESS WHAT!!!! I PLACED 10TH OF 28 AT THE NATIONAL BETA CLUB CONVENTION: ON-SITE COLORED PENCIL!!!!!! I SAW MY NAME ON THE WEBSITE!!!!!!! HELL YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BEAT THAT, YOU LAZY ASSES (my club, sponsors, and classmates who absolutely REFUSED to help me raise the $1200 so I could go to Nationals even though I'm the first one to make it from my school system in 20 years!!!)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

take a look
do you see?
do you care?
can you hear?
should i scream?
so many thoughts
circling my head
f*** it gets so hard!
did you see what i went
through every single day.
the pain that wouldn't go away!
did you care about the feelings
i couldn't share, knowing you
wouldnt understand!
and when i did, did you LISTEN!
so here i am now alone with despair
with noone around, noone who cares

She sits in the room, boxes surrounding her
She`s been told to be strong, grown up in 2 weeks
Her mother working a lot, father in denial

But who is there when she cries tonight
Who will hug her when she gets in another fight
When her heart throbs, who will help the pain
When she`s broken, who will take her out of the rain

She was taught to be on her own
She was taught to be independent
But she needs to be shown
She needs to know how to live
She needs to be able to be free
She needs to be a kid

Oh daddy left this morning
Mamma doesnt care
Friends are confsed

Jet sits in the corner, heads on the table around her
Waits for her father to be done, done dancing with his animal
She can hear the snorts, sees the smoke, and listens to the animal howling
She sits alone, while the others do the tango, tango with the monster

Her father takes a hit, sits for seconds, before taking a line as well
He sits up, laughs, body shaking, shaking with the control of the monster
People around her, around him, popping pills, snorting lines, taking hits
She sits alone, not disturbed, until she sees it, sees the monster, sees the animals

The tingly feeling in your belly
The flutters in your heart
The sweet on your palms
The batting of your eyelashes

I miss this

The pain in your body
The throbbing of your heart
The regret in your mind
The constant reminder of your concious

I hate this

The relief when you reach for my hand
The suspense when you're saying good bye
The passion when we have our first kiss
The joy when i close my door, think about the night

I wish for this

The sadness when i see a picture of us
The regret when i pass you in the halls
The broken hope when i try to call you

i am in alabama... almost in florida, which was my destination. i stole my parents debit card and van. we made it a long way. (my sister and i) anyways... i am living with my foster parents until my real parents can make it down here and get us and our impounded van. i got caught by the police because i was driving on the wrong side of the road. almost had a head on collision with a state trooper. no joke and no lies. seriously. so scary. not funny. lol. um, well... i wonder how long i be grounded dis timey. lol. idk. i love michael frederick!

i dont know how to feel. daniel moved. he's in colorado now. and as if that wasnt enough...
i've decided that i like my best friends boyfirends best friend. he doesnt like me. (i dont think)
now another best friend likes my best friends boyfriend. he likes her too.
this doesnt mak much sence to you guys, but to me it does, because nothing ever makes perfect sence to me, but i understand it that way. *laugh*

I was so angry because i never had been 2 a 3DG concert. That really did suck 4 me, but then i won tickets 2 see them at the Tabernacle in Atlanta. They BLEW ME AWAY!!!!!! They were so amazing! I loved it when they played RIOT, everyone went crazy (soo fun).

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p4cJv6s_Yjw

^between the bars-one of my favorite songs.

he said in a interview he wouldnt be a popular rockstar, and that he wasnt that kind of person.and he was right he wasnt a popular rockstar he was a "legendary rockstar".r.i.p

The heart keeps beating
Although it's broken
The tears keep flowing
until you are woken

The soul isnt empty
even it's disapeared
The ach not subsiding
even if you are feared

but
I will survive this
I will be strong
The half you took from me
Is the worst half of me

I will be better
I will be happier
The half you took from me
Is the worst half of me

The pain is enividable
it wont go away
The anger growing
knowing how you'll pay

The wounds start healing
scars lighten
The forgivness still hidden
soon to brighten

because
I will survive this
I will be strong

A young girl sits alone, cold, stoned, never to know
Her belly getting bigger, her heart filling with more love
Even though his love is gone

A boy jogs away from a house, cold, stoned, broken
His mind a blank, his body frozen, his heart throbbing
Even though his heart is still with her

Her tears stain her shirt, stain his soul
His confusion throwing him off, confusing her more
Their hearts beat together, get so far apart

A young child is born, new to this world
Little does it know it's mom is messed up
Little does it know it's dad is missing

As the trigger tip toed close behind her back,
her heart pumped faster as the sweat rolled down her neck.
She waits.
And now, theyre coming faster through her dreams.
And now, you wish you'd never left me.
They wanna watch you scream.
These twisted dreams are so pristine.
They'll sneak into your dreams and take you for everything you never really had.

I lost my beat in a sea of shapes and sounds
And I lost my mind in the color of your eyes.
Bury me?
Bury you beneath our first kiss
And in those twisted dreams is where you'll finally rest.

We plead for mercy.

This is inspired by Adam Gontier
I was watching the documentary 'Behind The Pain' and it really moved me, so i wrote something for him

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Behind the pain lives an animal
He craves the magic, the good stuff
he puts on a show, so they`ll believe
That everything is okay, the moster off his back

But when he`s alone
the monster comes out of no where
Itches for the juice, so he can become stronger
Soon he`ll take over, mind and body

He shakes the cravings away, gone
But inside, in his soul, the monsters nesting

My hair color changes with the weather
My soul evaporates with the rain
My breath taken away with you
My heart beating slower as you walk away

If you let me be me
If you let me be happy
My heart wouldn`t be broken
My life wouldn`t be dark
My arms wouldn`t be cold

My dance slows with the song
My piano still like the water
My joy disapearing like the sun
My light darkining with the moon

If you let me be me
If you let me be yours
You would have my heart
You would lighten my life
You would be wrapped around me

My hair color changes with the weather

Pain is what i feel inside
and
Love is what i wanna hide
and
You are what i wanna hold
but
Now my arms are just cold
their just cold

Anger explodes in me
and
Misery is what i can see
and
Happiniess is drowning
in my tears
for you
for you

Joy has slipped away
and
Laughter isnt easy, no way
and
If you were mine, it would all
be okay
be okay

I can't wait until i can go see them in concert cuz i'm like their number one fan ppl! i have a picture of them on a tube af lip gloss!! and all over my walls!

(I decided to write lyrics to a song, just taking a shot, and this is what i came up with...)

You should be a movie
So i could watch you all day
So you could fill up my mind
so i can say what i wanna say

You should be a bolder
So you couldnt roll away
So i can wrap my arms around you
And hope to God you stay

If i had a wish
it would be to have you
If i had a dream
it would always be
about you
If i had a love
it would be all yours
But baby
You see right through me

You should be a love note
So i could read your every thought
You could be that lucky prize

Seether,The Used,and MCR rule ROCK!!!

My parents are so stupid somtimes , they sent me away cause I have anger prblems. They sent me to my moms one friend and I workedd my butt off for a week hauling stixs around. Sombody please talk me out of running away cause I really dont have any where to go. So I need help. HELP!!!!!!!..... me escape this hell.

things didnt go well. T_T . now im sad forever. love is a art no one can perfect, but many can criticize.