The tingly feeling in your belly
The flutters in your heart
The sweet on your palms
The batting of your eyelashes

I miss this

The pain in your body
The throbbing of your heart
The regret in your mind
The constant reminder of your concious

I hate this

The relief when you reach for my hand
The suspense when you're saying good bye
The passion when we have our first kiss
The joy when i close my door, think about the night

I wish for this

The sadness when i see a picture of us
The regret when i pass you in the halls
The broken hope when i try to call you
The realization when you stop talking to me

I deny this

The joy when you stop me in the halls
The happiness when you ask if we can talk
The confusion when you say it's serious
The disbelief that you would betray me

I'm afraid of this

The disapointment when i see you in the library
The sadness when you start to talk
The understanding that it's serious
The realization you already betrayed me

I'm angry at this

The pain when i find out about her
The anger when you say you're sorry
The furry when you say we should be friends
The stupidity when you say it was better this way

I'm pissed at this

The pain when i know she was there the whole time
The anger when i kow you never were sorry
The furry when i realize i never want to be friends
The stupidity when i know it will never been better this way

I'm happy about this

The relief when i know you hold on me is over
The regret when i think that she will be hurt too
The happiness when i know that you wont look this way
The beating when i feel my heart again, unfrozen by you

I'm alive because of this

The realization when i think about this
The realization when i think about the pain i felt with you
The realization when i think about how i never wanted you
The realization when i think abotu how you never loved me, and i never loved you

I realize this

The comfort of us together
became
The distance of us together

The love for eachother
became
The hate for eachother

The music we shared
became
The music we rejected

The heart that beat as one
became
The heart you stole from me

The pain i felt when you left
became
The pain you'll feel without me