My cousin just told me that he saw my ex with another girl. And that they were making out! Its so unbearable, the pain is making me go insane. I can't even except the fact that hes with another girl. I sit here and wonder if he still thinks of me! What would he do if he realized how much he put me through? Does he even care? How does he feel? I mean i'm glad that hes happy, but I wonder if he misses me! Does he think about me, like I think about him? Does he hurt, like I hurt? Does he cry himself to sleep thinking about what we would be if we were still going out, like I do? Does he still melt to the ground when he sees me, like I do when I see him? How does he manage to stay on my mind? Do I stay on his mind? Does he still have feelings for me? I still have feelings for him! Why does this always happen to me? Or, does it happen to him too? If I hate him so much, Why do I love him so much?!?