well, you see. . . i thought u really cared about me, the way i did about u. u said u cared but people lie to get what they want out of a relationship sometimes. i thought u were the one but then, last night, i saw something that scared me and made me think that maybe u dont feel the same. it made me hurt worse than i've ever hurt before. i want u so much and i want to let u in my life but now, i've backed away considering all that has happened. i dont know what to tell you or how to tell you that you've hurt me this way. i thought i loved you and that maybe you could love me back someday. . .but you just wanted something that i'm not just quite ready to give you and i understand if she'll let you do those things and you want her. i thought we were meant to be but i saw what you said to her and i dont know if i want you in my life any longer. im just so lost and confused and i wish you understood that maybe i want to stay a kid awhile longer and dont want to do those things until i'm ready. i dont think you understand and thats just fine. if you want, i am ready to be done with you, not because i want to be, but because it's coming to the point where i have to stand up for myself and what i belive and that is wear i will stand. i'm not happy the way i was not long ago and i dont think you r either. so if you dont want to be a man than i am done.