sometimes i feel as though no one notices me either. i hate it. even if i act like a 5 yo, i still don't get noticed. i wish sometimes that someone will just pay attention to me

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i feel guilty for feeling numb

ive been called alot, i mean alot of things, but poseur is something im not...okay, ive not been right in the head for years now, but, ive never flipped over something as anm 18 year olds little comment. he doesnt know me. he has no idea where i come from, so, i dont want to talk about anymore. im going to cancel my account onm here, so thanx neosin! youre depriving some people my pathetic presence... goodbye

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I'm a good listener so im told and i fell just the same but this is a qestion for everybody. . . When your in a crowd full of people that try to love your additude, do you still feel alone? I have like a blanket that seperates me from the rest of the happy world but i still have a thinner veil that blocks out all of you people, it's frustrating!!! AAAAAAHHHHH!!!!! Som times i feel like riping out my hair and running away!!! I know that life isnt fair but it atleast has to be just!!!! GOD!! But still thanks for every thing even though i dont know how this site helps me. Oh well at least i have a little sanity and knowledge! Keep your mind sharp and your wits about you so you don't crash and burn like so manny others!

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I am not numb just unfeeling, i am not afraid just not ready, i am not kind, just not cruel, and above all i am not weak!! But i am cold.

i see what ur sayin. it must be rough livin a life not meant to be lived. but i have to say...even though you feel like you don't belong...you'd be surprised at how many ppl feel the same as you. i'm not sayin they want to live as eragon. i'm sayin they don't feel as though they belong in this lifetime. if i were to give any advice it would be to try and live life as it is. there is no use trying to fight something that isn't meant to be fought. i know it's hard and i know what it's like to feel cold and empty. that's all i feel sometimes. actually that's all i feel now. i can't express anything. i like love for instance. or sympathy, compassion, or even sorrow. i wish i could but i can't. i can't even cry. which kills me. now all i do is lie on my bed and wait. i don't really know what for, but i'm just waiting. wow. i haven't really been able to express how i feel. and it's odd how i can just tell you or any random person for that matter. so...thanks

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i feel guilty for feeling numb

its called tell your story read the damn thing and wright a replie so i know who has the poets toch and who doesn't

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Todays the day of my attemted life

I have alot of problems, i almost fractured my left hand punching a door but the reson is that i don't belong here, i belong in the times as in eragon and The Pellinor books, i am wise beond my years and beond any living crature on earth but i don't pride myself in that i am not boasting i just feel like i shouldn't try to live a life never meant for me but i am still alive so i just have to bear down and hope that i can find somone to open my broken heart to. I am cold on the outside and you have to dig deep and destroy whats left of my sanity to find the love of my tortured soul
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Todays the day of my attemted life

if you dont wanna answer u don't have to. what made you wanna die when you were 11?

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i feel guilty for feeling numb

I commited suicide once but all i did was punckture my main arterie and get sent to a pyco senter for a month and a half, don't do it things may not get better but i personally i'd rather feel pain than nothing at all!! the small girl finished her senence and gave you a rare half smile and walked away (i haven't fully smiled since i tryed to die and that was when i was 11 i'm fifteen).

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Todays the day of my attemted life

i'm jess
i also live in a small town (in nd though)
you have a good taste in bands. my current fave band is system of a down (don't get me wrong i love tdg). i also like disturbed and drowning pool.

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i feel guilty for feeling numb

i'm victoria(duh,lol)
heres alittle about me.
i live in a small town in new york,i'm 13yrs old.
some other bands that i liten to are avenge sevenfold,breaking benjamin,and alot more that i can't think about at the moment!