I really have nothing good to write and i doubt anyone reads this but its time consuming and its better than what im doing right now..( somewhat cause im listening to 3DG and thats of course amazing but the rest not so much) so i was forced to go to the states for christmas break to spend time with my family but i really dislike it they dont like me for who i am they wish i was someone different its very obvious considering they basically told it to me front up saying i need to change because i look half dead most of the time well heres a little message for you Grandma I DONT CARE ..who says im not half dead? so anyways im sitting here using up the small amounts of time i get on the computer to write a blog that i useless while my so called "family" watches a football game. what is a family? like honestly ive heard it from a family is the people you are close to, a family is the people who love you/youlove, a family is what you are born into... but isnt or shouldnt a family be people who love you and care about you regardless of your looks or tastes in style or how rich or poor you are? so what exactly is a family? if anyone has any answers or assumes something please tell me cause i would love to know cause my only "family" it seems is my amazing boyfriend Nathan my best friends and my i pod that plays the music i love.