Have you ever had those moments where you're doing absolutely nothing but thinking meaningless thoughts. Then, "bang"! You come across a thought that's actually worth pondering for a bit. Well, I came across one such thought.

I was thinking about a journal entry that Adam had posted on the band's website. It was an entry he did while on tour last year. He was keeping the fans up-to-date with all the action he was experiencing. In this particular entry, he confessed something about his life. He confessed that there was a point in time where he was depressed and he pulled back from everyone. It was implied that he struggled with life or death. He ended the entry by saying that "there is a silver lining" no matter how dark life may appear. Adam kept his confession vague because it was too heavy to get into online. What I've stated above is my interpretation of his entry.

The thought that was worth pondering was this: how could someone so gifted get to such a low point? Adam's blessed with such a powerful voice and there is so much talent in him as a musician. How is it that we don't recognize that there is a purpose or meaning to our lives? Or, isn't it strange how we can be surrounded by people and, yet, feel isolated from them?

Here I am trying to see that "silver lining" Adam speaks about and I can't see it. Everything has become meaningless. People are telling me that I need to get help but I choose to live in ignorance. How much more is it going to take for me to wake up? I continue to live in depression and I've created this shield around me that no one can penetrate, (not even Dr. Phil). I guess it's about time I take it up with Christ. It seems like he's the only one who can help me get a grip.

If people can't give me the answers I seek, then it has to be the one who created me. One day, I might have a story to share, like Adam...About this "silver lining" that exists in this life. Until then, I leave you with this familiar lyric: "If I stay, it won't be long til I'm burning on the inside. If I go, I can only hope that I make it to the other side".