hey i'm not gonna be on for about two weeks so if i dont reply to anyone dont think i hate you cause i don't
love you all xoxoxoxox
jess

Love-to-roit has writen fantastic poems and i WANT EVERYONE to read them PLEASE. and let him know what you think about them.
they really are good and you'll love them.
please please please please read them. thanks xoxoox

life is so hard at times that you really just want it to end.
well i can honestly say i have felt this way more than once and its s***.

one of my other blogs tells you about my past and how i was pregnant. well today in my biology class we had to watch a dvd about reproduction and as soon as it showed an ultra sound ithe tears started to roll down my face and about 10 minutes later i ran out of class.
i guess with something like this you really, really need to take the time to come to terms with it and actually know that your ok.

i have finally finished my exams!!!! YAY
now i can party and have fun

god i hate people who think they're top s***.
ok so your like what the hell.
this chick who i thought was my friend is a total cow.
she f***ing lied to me non stop and only spoke to me when she wanted something.
and yesterday in our computer class she started on me and accused my mother of stalking her. how f***ing pathetic.
so i told her top shove our friendship up her arse, but a bit nastier and more words.
i am so over being lied to and made to feel like s***.
comment if ya want, you dont have to i'm not fussed....

xoxox
love ya all
jess

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY
lol yay i'm finally 17.

not sure why but all of a sudden i feel really down and it's wierd.
i dont think i've felt this way for 2 years.
my life was fine yesterday, i even took my mum out for her birthday and we had a great time
but now i just feel like crap.
well take care all xox

omg i have exams soon and i'm freaking out.
i'm so not ready for them and don't know what to do.
if any one has any tips on studying and staying focused please don't hesitate to let me know.
thanks all
-xoxo-
jess

ok so life can be s*** at times, i i think most people have worked that out.
i was 14 when i realised just how s*** my life was.
i was with a drop kick guy who abused me consistantly and then i ended up being pregnant to him.
yes thats right, 14 and knocked up.
i was 3 and a half months before i told mum and two weeks before my 15th i went in to get a termanation.
i'm not afraid to admit that i had it done.
i know that i wasn't ready to have a child let alone want to bring it up with the father hitting me all the time.
thats not what a family should be like.

ok so i don't have a normal family but thats cool with me.
i have 6 uncles ( and one of them is gay) and one aunty.
all my uncles are very protective of me and ever since i was born i have conciderd them to be my father figures as i haven't seen my dad since i was about 7.
but hey, not much i can do about that.

i have 2 older sisters who mean the world to me even though they give me the absoulute s***s most day's.

and my mum, the best friend i've ever had.
this is the strongest women i have ever met in my life.
she holds things together even when she's falling apart.