She got the sugery. I just found out about an hour ago. I can't belive it. I'm so happy. Turns out her doctor guilt tripped her. Ah well. But I'm happy. She's been my shining star for so long it would be hard to not have her there for me. We've been through so much now that I don't think I could've survived without her.

I know its been forever. Life is doing alot better now. School is no problem and my family life is getting better. The only bad point is the my friend who has the tumor is refusing surgery. She has an estimated 1 year to live. Maybe more and maybe less. I wish she would do the surgery but I know that this is shat she wants. I will give her this peace.

Could it be any harder by The Calling

You left me with goodbye and open arms
A cut so deep I don't deserve
You were always invincible in my eyes
The only thing against us now is time

Chorus:

Well I've found out that my best friend is dying. She has a tumor thats growing into her brain and to add to that, its cancerous. I've known this girl since I was born. Literally. She's been my rock for so long that I don't know what I'll do when she's gone. She's kept me off the edge. I guess that all I can do is be there for her. Now all thats left is a broken promise while she's waiting.

Time of Dying by Three Days Grace

On the ground I lay
Motionless in pain
I can see my life flashing before my eyes
Did I fall asleep
Is this all a dream
Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare

live in a ok sized city but there is never anything to do. I have an older sister, a mother who I love with all my heart, and a father who's mid-life crisis has lasted since I was born and still hasn't ended (or atleast thats what I blame his behavior on.). I have few friends that I would trust with my life and a few that I wouldn't. Music = Life for me since it has saved me from myself. I am down with just about anything and I support just about everyone. I am what you call the advice giver or the go to kid. I love to draw but I suck at it.