Dodging every bullet
and spitting every line
until nothing's left but hopeless time
Run fast...before it's too late
Before nothing's left but time and hate
Unless something's done to ease the cry...
all that's left is the time to die

After every push you'd think I'd back down
After every smack you'd think I'd frown

But you should know that I will never recede
Every push and every smack will never succeed

I will get back up and push right back
I will get back up and throw that smack

What you've done has made me stronger
Never will I be defeated...never and no longer

Confused, I lie alone...
trying to feel with a heart that is no longer there
I wonder why I feel the way I do
Although I try, I'm unable to find answers within myself
It's as though I'm grasping at air that's not meant to be captured
LIke struggling to see when I am a person with no sight
I'm blind towards love and compassion

Lost, I die alone...
leaving myself to the anger and hate
I no longer wonder why I feel the way I do
Although I tried, I was never able to fine the answers
Never did I catch the air that I once tried so hard to capture

"War Inside"

I fight belligerently
battling anger and hatred
The darkness consumes my thoughts
I fall to my knees and bow my head to my formidable enemy...
myself

You can’t quit until you try
You can’t live until you die
You can’t learn to tell the truth
Until you learn to lie

You can’t breathe until you choke
You gotta laugh when you’re the joke
There’s nothing like a funeral to make you feel alive

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

I know some things that you don’t
I’ve done things that you won’t
There’s nothing like a trail of blood to find your way back home

I was waiting for my hearse

Talk to me ppl. I'm bored as hell!

damn...i need a drink...and i'm not talkin about water.

I just wanted to thank everyone on this site. even if you guys don't know it, you have helped me a lot. i have tremendous respect for each and everyone of you.

i wrote this a while ago on the post about someone who lost their friend from drunk driving. i just wanted to repost is because i just want ppl to know how i feel about the situation.

I am so bored. I am stuck in computer class for what feels like forever. I mean my teacher is fine but i hate doing all this crap. i know that the stuff i am learning, is vital to my educationand future career but for f**** sake i can't take this stuff anymore. It is so hard to concentrate on something so boring. WHEEEW! Uh, i feel so much better now. I'm not the kind of person that complains a lot but i do have outbursts sometimes. Anyway thanks for letting me get out my frustration.: )